at last

So the time has come. Finally, light is shed on the date when the GCE A's results are due to be released. And with it, comes inevitable fear. A caged monster gnawing at the insides of our mortal shell. Under such circumstances, it is released. Fear is a bitch, really. I grow weary of it. A month ago i thought the results were due in the first 7 days of Feburary. And because of that i endured quite a number of sleepless nights, spent pondering over the outcome, dire or not. The day never came. Fear and anxiety faded gradually. Until now, that is. The monster inside me has risen once again. Renewed vigour and all. Endless attempts to tame the emotion have been nothing but futile. I am tired. I tell myself, keep your expectations low, then it won't be that bad. Compete with yourself, not others. It works briefly. I very well know where i stand among my classmates in terms of academia. The scene keeps replaying in my head. One of friends celebrating in unison, outbursts of joy filling the hall. Everyone, except me. On loop. Sigh. Damn i hope that doesn't happen. I really do.

"The only way past fear, is to go through."

*Author Unknown*